Look, im sorry. Im sorry for bothering you. Im sorry for all the texts I send you. Im sorry for IMing you the second you get online. Im sorry I keep asking if youre free to hang out. Im sorry I ask random questions. Im sorry that I ask about your life. Im sorry that im a bother to you. Im sorry that I always recite all those silly friendship quotes. But heres the truth. Im not sorry for any of those things; I only did it because you’re my friend. What im really sorry for is that you don’t realize how much our friendship means to me. Im sorry that I have a deep worry that this friendship wont last much longer. Im sorry I wanted to talk to you. Im sorry I wanted to get your opinions and advice on things. Im sorry I wanted to hang out with you. I just thought that’s what friends did. Im sorry I was willing to do anything to get your attention. I didn’t know being friends was too much to ask from you. Im sorry that im now left with only memories of what used to be. Please do me one favor, when you see the tears gently falling down my cheeks, don’t try to comfort me. I don’t need a reminder of how I could always tell you everything, how you’d sit by me and just hold me while I cried. So please, if this is over, then lets just say our goodbyes and walk away and not look back, because I cant believe that a friendship I once held so dear to my heart is now fading to nothing. Now thats really what Im sorry for.
dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah Lagi Maha Penyayang... alhamdulillah..harini, saya menyambung kembali mencoret perjalanan yang masih bersisa dan yang punya saki baki ni...hati ralat...tika bibir mengukir senyuman, tetapi hati punya reaksi yang sebaliknya...saya malas nak menaip..alkisahnya...setahun yang lepas, bila salah faham tu berlaku antara kami...dan ramai yang turut masuk campur...saya tidak mengambil tahu tentang kisah mereka yang lain, kenapa mesti menyibuk akan perkara saya? kenapa mesti bercakap sesuatu yang belum pasti? tidak ingat Tuhan? tidak ingat dosa? okay...fine..status di muka buku tu menghangatkan segala-galanya...sehingga saya dipandang serong...setahun yang lepas...segalanya bertukar..hinggalah saat ini...ya..mereka tidak mengenali saya...mana mungkin mengenali saya jika tidak pernah bermusafir bersama saya..hanya tika di kelas, adakah itu sudah mampu untuk kalian membuat andaian bahawa kalian mengenali diri ini? perkara itu, saya tau di mana silapnya..tet...
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